won't you love me too. it's as simple as that ♥

♥ Wednesday, March 04, 2009

HEY EVERYONE.
i guess im gonna be using LJ more now.
so i'll update there instead of here
cos i can use LJ on my phone and not blogger.

you guys can continue to tag here.
i still check almost everyday.
and i will reply your tags. (:

http://melloke.livejournal.com

lots of love,
mel. (:

♥ MEL

3:04 AM

♥ Sunday, February 22, 2009

Coz I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
'Cause I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside
I never
I never
I never
I never

MR. BRIGHTSIDE by THE KILLERS.

IM FEELING PRETTY HIGH TODAY.
THOUGH IM STILL FEELING SICK AND ALL THAT.
MY HEAD IS STILL SPINNING!
I FEEL GIDDY HALF THE TIME.
BUT TEH TARIK IS MAKING ME HIGH.
WTF.
IM SO FREAKING SIAN OF THE WEEKENDS.
I WANNA GO TO SCHOOL.
I WANNA BECOME A MUGGER.
I WANNA STUDY HARD.
I WANNA BE SMART.
I WANNA DO WELL.
I WANNA BE HAPPY.
I WANNA BE CHEERFUL AT ALL TIMES.
I DONT WANNA HAVE MY HEART BROKEN.
I WANNA SMILE ALL THE TIME.
I DONT WANNA BE CRAZY ANYMORE.
I WANNA WORK HARD.
I WANNA CUT DOWN ON BOOZE.
I WANNA BE A NORMAL HARDWORKING SCHOOLGIRL.
I WANNA DO ALL MY HOMEWORK.
I WANNA BE A GOOD GIRL.
I WANNA BE A NICE PERSON.
BUT I DONT THINK I CAN REMEMBER ALL THESE AFTER 10MINS.
AND THIS IS SO BORING!
IM HOOKED ONTO A SONG I CANT SING!
I WANNA GO OUT TO PLAY.
BUT IM TOO SICK!
I WANNA GO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
IM SO BORED AT HOME.
IM SO SICK OF LYING ON MY BED.
I WANT MY HEAD TO STOP SPINNING.
I WANNA GET WELL SOON.
I WANNA STOP BEING HIGH.
THIS IS THE 201TH POST MAN.
WOOHOO!
WAS FEELING SO FUCKED UP THIS MORNING LUH.
NOW SO HIGH.
I THINK I HAVE BRAIN DAMAGE ALREADY.
SHITTTT!

ANYWAY,

HI KENDRA!
DONT WORRY IM FINE.
SEE YOU IN SCHOOL TOMORROW!

HI LORRAINE!
I LIKE TIMES NEW ROMAN!
WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE FONT!

HI LIDIA!
I WAS SICK YESTERDAY LUH.
COULDNT GO OUT.
DAMN SAD.
WE GOTTA HANG OUT SOON MAN!
MISS YOU LOADS!

TOODLES! <3

♥ MEL

12:03 AM

♥

THIS SUCKS. AND I MIGHT CHANGE TO LJ SOON.

♥ MEL

12:00 AM

♥ Friday, February 20, 2009

Slow things down or speed them up

This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagined
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
I'll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
Tearin' out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?

MEMORY by SUGARCULT.

i adore this song man.
and i love jamming! =D

today has been a really dead day.
woke up feeling damn tired.
then during piano lesson also very tired.

halfway throughout lesson,
felt damn giddy.
after lesson,
went to lie down.
damn sian today.
cant believe im falling sick! ):

shit man.
my head damn freaking pain luh.
and i dont know why im blogging in a situation like this....
dont ask me why luh.

and i cant stand it anymore.
stupid head of mine.
im gonna stop blogging soon.

i apologise to the one whose birthday is today.
sorry i couldnt celebrate with you. ):

toodles!

anw,
HELLO TO:
MELVIN
JUN HUI
GERMAINE
CHENG HOWE
LIDIA! (blog finally updated.)

whats your favourite font?

♥ MEL

10:47 PM

♥ Saturday, February 14, 2009

I'll need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz everytime I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I'll need a little more help than a little bit
Like a perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by this time

What a shame we all became such fragile, broken things
A memory remains just a tiny spark
I give it all my oxygen
So let the flames begin
So let the flames begin
Oh, glory
Oh, glory
This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is what will be our glory
Somewhere weakness is our strength
And I'll die searching for it
I can't let myself regret such selfishness
My pain and all the trouble caused
No matter how long
I believe that there's hope
Buried beneath it all and
Hiding beneath it all, and
Growing beneath it all, and...
This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing it
This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be our glory
Reaching as I sink down into light
Reaching as I sink down into light
This is how we dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing it
This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be oh glory

LET THE FLAMES BEGIN by PARAMORE.

today was an interesting day man.
i awoke feeling damn sian.
so i went for early shower.
had piano lesson.
was feeling abit sian during piano,
cos i was so tired and i couldnt wait to go funfair.
so after piano lesson,
dressed up to go out.
took me 5mins only!
first time so fast man.
then i went to cedar fiesta.
did crazy things there.
(check fb photos later.)
then had dinner at country club.

OMG. I MISS CEDAR.

♥ MEL

5:08 AM

♥ Tuesday, February 10, 2009

And will you tell all your friends,
You've got your gun to my head.
This all was only wishful thinkin',
This all was only wishful thinkin'.

Maybe we, why don't we sit right here for half an hour?
we'll speak of what a waste I am and how we missed your beat again.
I swear we need to find some comfort in this run down place.
to bridge the gap of this concious state that we live in.
I'm short on time.
how come you try and fit the shape of what they tell you.
but mostly what they show you.
I'm taking back all the things I said.
keep me filled in, I swear I'll come.
we walk alone, back home.
you're almost gone and I'm okay to give you time to be afraid.
I still see your shadow but never your face again.
I remember your presence.
I hope to God you come down.
I hope to God you feel this now.
I know there must be some way out of here and all of them will be
waiting there.

WRITING ON WALLS by UNDEROATH.

blasting from my iPod today is
(1) Underoath.
(2) Hawthorne Heights.
(3) Lamb Of God.
(4) Silverstein.
(5) Alesana.

for those who know these bands,
you should know how i'm feeling today.
for those who don't,
go fucking listen to these bands.
they are awesome.

anyway,
i realised i haven't really blogged for the past few days.
it's cos' i'm so freaking tired by the time i get home.
rawrr!
by the time i reach home,
i'll be like so fking tired even though it might not be 5 yet?

as you can see,
i decided to post lyrics again.
it was just stuck in my head when i was on my way home.
was thinking too much as usual.

and ian,
you're damn right.
you can like totally predict my emo moments already!
and thanks for being able to tune in to the MEL EMO MOMENT.

rawrr.
thinking too much is bad. ):

♥ MEL

1:32 AM

♥ Sunday, February 08, 2009

today's a brighter day.
tho a couple of people refuse to reply my texts.
why are people so busy these few days! ):
hmph.

i realise,
that im very sensitive to songs.
like,
every songs carries a memory with it.
maybe sensitive is the wrong word.
but whos give a duck about it.
well,
i kinda feel i know like DAMN ALOT of people with names starting with J.
and each of them has a song attached with them.

faber drive.- tongue tied.
a certain J person i think about once in awhile.
and i always scold myself silly for thinking about you.

polygraph, right now.- the spill canvas.
another J person.
i miss talking to this person.
i miss hanging out with this person.
the one who introduced me to this song.
you're always in my heart....

durch den monsun.- tokio hotel.
this J person.
i was very brave around this person.
and i guess i kinda turned you off.
i probably had this 'scary' image.
rawrr.

baby, its fact.- hellogoodbye.
this song....
sighh....
i dont hate this particular J person.
but well,
you're the craziest person i've ever known.
and you should GET A LIFE.

get back.- demi lovato.
this J person got me thinking alot.
i was always asking myself if i liked this person.
its so long ago....
but well,
YOU HURT ME.
you led me on.
and you know who you are.

yeah.
this wasnt supposed to be an emo post.
and today wasnt supposed to be an emo day.

reuben, where are you when i need you? ):

and yongyuan! thanks for noticing my tagboard is dead. (: erm, i'll link you!

♥ MEL

3:25 AM

♥ Saturday, February 07, 2009

this blog is nearing its 200th post!
erm, wow.
heh,
my uniform looks weird on me.
but well,
at least i already consider myself an ajcian.
and the PE shirt looks cool,
but i still look weird in it.
heh,
well.
i decided....
if i dont wanna be emo,
i shouldnt think too much.
but then again....

rawrr.
stupid soccer.
i couldnt get into soccer man.
so sian luh.
why cant girls play soccer!
why cant there be a girls soccer team!
RAWRR.

Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care
Maybe I could meet you there

♥ MEL

1:01 AM